《上帝说选择遗忘比一直受伤更好》

kaysusan · 发表于 2009-10-3 04:28:03

花落满地，掷地无声，一个人的盛夏，看过了太多繁花，彼岸花开，此岸花落。洒下遍地。夏雨滂沱，浇灌了那一片寂寞。

离别夏末，梦锁清秋，寂寞狂欢的秋，把那悠悠的离愁放入那一杯浊酒，对酒酣眠，愁入心头，对月当歌，谁的思念划破寂夜。

曾经走到上帝面前许愿，在漫长的归程中却忘记了自己最初的梦想，于是他甘愿成为拿细耳人，把灵魂献给上帝，以求在岁月中想起曾经与上帝订下的契约，但是上帝或许也已经遗忘了他的梦想，于是他开始反抗，和Lucife一起走向那条通向地狱的路途，渐渐磨灭了灵魂，自甘成为satan，在那片自己开创的新天地里开创一个属于自己的天堂，肆意的把自己所谓的梦想一点一滴的堆砌，也把自己的绝望一点一滴的凝聚。虚假的阳光，虚假的海，虚假的风让他掉下了虚假的但却绝望的泪。

直到有一天，寒冷的光刺穿了他的心脏，洒落满地的灵魂撕裂了那有梦想堆砌的第三世界，也是时候带着遗憾带着过去那段缺失的记忆湮灭，只是他却想起他曾经立下的契约，那个把灵魂献给上帝的契约只是为了换来她的一声简单的关心，还有那一份简单的安全感。但是直到他为此沦为santan的那一天，他还没有明白，他只不过是想安静的保护着她，不再受伤害。即使自己已经遍体鳞伤，也想为她建立一个属于梦想的世界。

心碎了于是沦为了Nazirite ，心醉了于是沦为了satan，直到最后一刻才知道，上帝并没有忘记，只是它知道一份傻傻的期待最后换来的或许是一份深深地伤害。一份爱或许就像潘多拉的盒子，一旦打开无止尽的忧伤会扑面而来，但是最后留下的希望只能由自己去抓住，不然只能化作第七重忧伤。其实他要的很简单，只是想为你创造一个属于自己的小世界。只是上帝选择把它忘记，但他从未放弃。

或许未来的未来重生的他，只能安静的作为nazirite吧，以为习惯了一个人安静的在夜晚仰望星空，因为那是上帝指向的方向。丘比特与血石的故事，双鱼座上的哭泣，只能作为星光让人仰望吧！

《my prayer》

dear god

i know that she's out there...

the one i'm suppose to share my whole life with

and in time...

you'll show her to me

will you take care of her

comfort her

and protect her

until that day we meet

and let her know

my heart...

is beating with hers

in a dream i hold you close

embracing you with my hands

you gazed at me with eyes full of love

and made me understand

that i was meant to share it with you

my heart my mind my soul

then i open my eyes

and all i see reality shows i'm alone

but i know someday that you'll be by my side
cause i know god's just waiting till the time is right

god will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
when the day's cold will you keep her warm
when the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
god will you let her know that i love her so
when theres no one there that she's not alone
just close her eyes and let her know

------2009.10.3

-----by kaysusan

----for my ever love

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kaysusan · 发表于 2009-10-3 04:29:18

今晚算是正式分开吧
月圆的夜晚
只能祝你幸福！
失眠中……

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过河帅 · 发表于 2009-10-3 05:26:25

《Melody of life》
alone for a while i\'ve been searching through the dark,
for traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart,
to weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
melodies of life - love\'s lost refain.
our paths they did cross, though i cannat say just why.
we met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
and who\'ll hear the echoes of stories never told ?
let them ring out loud till they unfold.
in my dearest memories, i see you reaching out to me.
though you\'re gone, i still believe that you can call out my name.
a voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
adding up the layers of harmony.
and so it goes, on and on.
melodies of life,
to the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.
so far and way, see the birds as it flies by.
gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
i\'ve laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.
in your dearest memories, do you remember loving me ?
was it fate that brought us close and now leave me behind ?
a voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
adding up the layers of harmony.
and so it goes, on and on.
melodies of life,
to the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.
if i should leave this lonely world behind,
your voice will still remember our melody.
now i know we\'ll carry on.
melodies of life,
come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember.